It seems weird that it’s been an entire year. I think living by the school calendar screws up my perception of the “normal” yearly calendar. All the days don’t add up and July as the middle of the year just seems strange. But nevertheless, 2012 is almost over. I’ve stayed up until magical midnight the past few years, but I am really exhausted tonight for some reason. Usually I have this strong desire to outlast my siblings and my parents, but tonight my bed looks exceptionally comfy. Perhaps I’ll arise at 11:59 and wait until 12:01 and then I’ll fall back asleep. Plus, I’m looking forward to tomorrow. I want tomorrow to come. And sleeping can speed up that arrival.
So here is the list of 12 significant occurrences from 2012. Most of them I would say are “positive”, but there is an exception here or there.
1) I traveled to Turkey and Amsterdam with my dad, cousin, and brother. Probably a trip I will remember for the rest of my life
2) I made it through a difficult semester at school
3) I survived the wart removal procedure. I know it’s repulsive to think about, but I didn’t faint which is sort of a big deal. Considering how I have ended up with other medical examinations, I passed a huge roadblock
4) I received my driver’s permit and I haven’t completely wrecked the car or anything.
5) I realized that hope, pure hope, is a very valuable emotion
6) I recognized that I am a judgmental person, but I often hide those assertions. It’s good to be mindful of one’s assertions, but I need to stop judging people so harshly.
7) I have attempted the NY Times crossword puzzle every week from the end of March until now. I haven’t solved them all but I think I’m better at word puzzles than I was in March
8) I realized how lucky I am to be able to write here and have an audience, although small. It’s comforting to know that my thoughts and worries and fluctuating emotions are noticed.
9) I made it to two social events for school. And I admit, I had fun. Just a teensy bit though
10) I worked for my mom over the summer and learned that some dynamics between people will never change
11) I finally relaxed and let myself enjoy dance for what it is. I basically just stopped stressing myself about it…I have so many other things to stress about anyways
12) Friends. Some friends more than others. One friend in particular. That person has changed me. And I am forever grateful. (And I am aware of the cheesiness of that statement, but just accept it). I rely very heavily on my friends. I’m very lucky that they allow me to do so.
Thanks for this year.